Let's take it from the top..

Alright.. i'm a little angry right now and there may be tonnes of spelling errors and stuff, but i don't care..

I got to work earlier, and i started to feel so annoyed at whats been happening, and how hes been treating me and his family, and how i feel so out of control. And i suddenly thought 'i have to tell someone..' I rang one of my best friends at work nad suggested making up for a catchup (i haven't been avble to talk on my own with her for a while). We met up at a local restaurant, and after a little while and broke down and told her everything thats been happening, how it all started, how i found out hes married and has kids, how hes been threatening me since. My friend was appalled by it. Her words to me made me realise for the first time in a while just what i'm in 'He's a monster...'

When i got back to work, i felt calmer.. more in control of my thoughts.. and a post someone on here sent to me came into my head, about me having all the cards.

I think something in me just snapped. I went to his office, and told him i wanted to end it, and i wanted him to leave me alone. He just laughed at me. So i said.. 'Well, if you don't stop, i'll go and see your wife and kids.." He started shouting at me then and at one point i thought he was going to choke me. I couldn't get out because he was blocking my way at first, but then he realised i wasn't going to back down for once and let me past.

I haven't carried through my threat yet. I'm still too anxious and het up to get my feelings across properly to them. I have to do it soon though..

The last thing that happened is this week..

He left me alone for a little while, and i began to feel better about things. At the christmas party, i met his son, nad even though it was upsetting to see the people i could end up hurting so much.. i really liked his son. Hes the nice version of his dad, and i know the difference between what i felt for his dad, nad what i feel now.

But that made things worse with his dad. I started getting texts from him on the sunday.. horrible stuff. 'Why the f*** where you hangin around him? hes too good for you!' I sent a message back saying his son didn't think so, and that it was none of his business who i wanted to see. I got this back 'Yes it is. your mine, you belong to me.' That chilled me..

This week hes been trying to scare me.. acting really cold, thinking that will make me come running. I've managed to keep away from him all week, and just refused to talk to him when he came to reception unless it was about work. Todays the last day of the week, and i'm thinking he'll try something.. But, for once, i'm not scared.